Archive for November, 2007

Fear..

Thursday, November 8th, 2007

Days of solitude passes by swiftly. Questions of why I am along this path never fail to pop up once in a while. Guess sometimes it baffles me as well. This pathway is not without its merit. It provides the opportunity to reflect more and ponder in greater depth of our past experiences and expectations placed on others. It also frees up more time to socialize and mingle with new friends and settling into a new environment. And all this activities will aid in understanding the true self within and seeking the true one out there.

In the process of realizing the real want, jittery small steps are taken every day. The notion of being held responsible for another person’s well being and future is not that daunting but it is the fear of failure to realize lifetime promises and as a result inject unhappiness and sadness into their life that forms the uneven bedrock of the ocean. The notion of always willing to try one’s best to make the other happy cannot be just a verbal settlement but a crystallize event not to be taken granted. The notion of accepting the other for whatever they were/are and their accompanying history and background should be in place to ensure a sound foundation. The notion of giving and taking in the event of clashes of ideas and actions play a massive role and is imperative all the time.

As we age, the linkage we place our own happiness with the surrounding atmosphere increase in importance. Establishing of linkage is no longer just a duet affair but involves a living community. Being with a person matures into knowing and accepting the person’s life and surrounding. This is certainly one topic that I am still trying to decipher and trying to grapple with what I can offer and accept overtime.