Life is a journey

Have you ever felt totally drain and exhausted from something like work or r/s? Have you ever felt that you are doing the wrong thing at the wrong time? Have you felt that you are living at the wrong time and space? Have you ever felt that you are with the wrong company, partner and group? Have you ever felt totally lost and disillusioned about what you are doing? Have you ever felt very irritable at the slightest things? Have you ever felt so regretful that you tear with remorse and sadness? Have you ever felt so empty that you just want to vanish from earth? Have you ever felt so useless, insignificant and disregarded that you just want to die? Have you ever felt so oppressed that you feel like exploding? Have you ever felt being exploited and unappreciated? Have you ever felt ostracized that you think you don’t belong to this world? Have you ever felt you are inadequate and the bad things you received are due to your own deficiencies and you deserve it? Have you ever felt that your current path is wrong and the grass patch is greener across the fences? Have you ever felt that enough is never enough?

some reflections that i have, would appreciate everyone that come across this blog to share with me your perspective on any areas that you feel something about, tell us briefly how you get that particular feeling and how did you response to it and let us all learn from the way you handle your darker days.

i half suspect it will be difficult for people to respond as very few pple would like to disclose your darker days juz like dat rt? or maybe most pple have selective memories and bad things tend to be forgotten easily. hence i hope we can look at this as a way to help your friends and yourself to walk out of the darker days together and nvr turn back..

yest was a nice day, i received a farewell gift from my ex-colleagues. its a v simple and common gift i think. its a photo frame with our group photo as background and on top of it, all my ex-colleagues left msges for me. but i think it is a v meaningful gift as their writings are v heart warming and i believe in years to come, this gift will be a constant morale booster and companion for me.

one of my colleague left a msg saying he cannot understand why am i always smiling? why do i seem to be so happy constantly? do i really enjoy my work so much? and of cos he end of saying he will miss my laughters etc..

guess i agree with him, i do portray the image that i am always happy at my old workplace. and certainly me being me, i do not put up a false front. i juz display my mood as it is all the time. so its true, i enjoyed my 2 yrs at my previous workplace and i enjoy the company of my ex-colleagues and simply the culture. though there is always cons in every things we do, i feel that the pros overwhelmed the not so good things of this posting.

however, at my current and new workplace, things are rather different. i don’t smile as much and me being me again, what does that mean? certainly, i have some gd friends here and more or less they do gave me some strength and motivation. but overall, if i do a comparison, i am definitely less happy at my current workplace.

maybe its bcos i am still not totally used to the new environment (hmm..it has been abt 1 mth and 1 wk) maybe i need more time to get use to it..and for me, i am also one that advocates the need to embrace change. of cos, i mean gd changes..such changes will give us diff experiences and diff lessons and we will learn diff things and all this will increase our wealth of knowledge and make us wiser. so even though i may seem to be much less happy then b4..i think this is an opportunity for me to learn and grow..