Life is a journey

2035hrs..on the way back home from work..quite late but i guess it could easily be later. Whilst driving, bcos of things that happened slightly earlier, my thoughts start to wonder again. What is most impt in your life? Life is made up of what components, if i may call it as components in the first place?

So off hand, these thoughts came to my mind. My life is really composed of my Family, Friends, Love and Career. Maybe its quite obvious, most people’s life hover around this few components or more or less. Guess my next qn will be what does each component mean to u?

its v clear to me, family and friends are very impt to me. next will be love and career. although based on my last few posts, i seem to value my work alot. yes tats true but the reason why i work hard is really bcos my family and the future love. so to speak, career is juz a means for me to take care of my loved ones and certainly another avenue for me to make more friends.

Thus, my next pt will be, i muz enjoy my job in terms of gd relationships with colleagues cos they = to my friends and friends are one of the component of my life. but work is nvr so smooth sailing, so when u met some "incompatible" colleagues, i will have to look for other avenues to liven myself up. it could be other colleagues/friends or love ones, if any.

Next scenario is your friends/colleagues are not with u at that moment cos they also have their own life then the last safety net will be love ones. cos by "law", they should be there for u irregardless of anything. thus finding a life partner that can fulfill this function, i realise is of paramount importance, at least to me.

hmm..so what abt u? how do u view life and what is most impt to u?

Moving on, I felt that my effort during the overseas exercise was not really seen, maybe I have not done enough, maybe what I did is not what they want. Anyway I felt quite cheated nevertheless as this is suppose to be THE CHANCE for me to prove myself.

So juz before I was posted to my unit, I sent two emails to pple I think could have helped me. They responded swiftly and gave me invaluable advice. I was encouraged by the comments they gave. Although based on what they told me, it still did not indicate to me that I stand any chance of getting what I want. Nevertheless, the fact that they bother to encourage me, someone who juz popped into their life for a couple of months or less then tat, really touches me.

Thus, the week after I sent tat emails, I was to report to my new unit. With the encouragement at the back of my mind plus my innate fighting spirit, I went to this new unit with a few goals in mind. Believe me, I am nvr a scheming person. However, I was able to achieve my goals within a short time frame becos I have a lot of great friends in the new units that really gave me loads of strength to fight on. Their presences juz make everything seem so simple to me, at least.

3 days into my new unit, I believe I have gathered sufficient friendly forces and I really felt strengthen with all the friendships. Some people feels that I trust pple too easily. They may be correct and sometimes I felt that too. But I believe that if I treat pple with integrity, fairness and an untainted mind, I believe I will receive equal treatments back. Unless prove otherwise, I will still continue to treat all as real friends.

And also it is also the 3^rd day that something so mundane to me happened but turns out to be a final turning point after these two months of traveling in zig-zag. (for more details, plse tok to me personally..hee..been telling friends since then manz..but nvr get tired of repeating the story again and again..:P)

And together with another piece of good news being told me on the same day (25 May 06), I was totally exhilarated tat night..i was totally stunned, blown away, gleaming with excitement, I juz feel like exploding!!

After receiving the gd news combo, I was in a daze momentarily but v soon, my mind again starts to being another journey of thoughts. Dunno if I have been thinking too much recently but I still think its better compare to last time where I seldom ponder as much.

The journey is nvr ending and we juz gotta continue to press on and harvest the returns u sow..and hopefully the returns will snowball and be able to benefit more pple in future too..

So wat happened after my overseas trip? As you know, I am suppose to be on off rt and you are supposed to jio me out rt..BUT sad to say the response ain’t tat gd..hee but its ok la..it’s the quality tat counts.

So during this period, I signed up with planet at parkway! Its my first time applying for gym membership so quite excited actually..those who know me will know I dun like to go to gym for training. But I love to attend the classes..so the day after parkway planet is opened, I decided to go for whatever class tat is available when I reach there. When I reach there, I can see there is only one class available call sculpt/alps. Not knowing wat izzit, I juz go for it, else defeat purpose rt. Hee so juz went in and slowly I realized that I am the only guy in the class and this is supposed to be something like a toning class. But the instructor is a guy so I thought doesn’t matter juz give it a try la. First we were told to prepare some light weights..something like 2 x 2.5kg excluding the bar. V light initially ya..but as we start to maneuver the weights in accordance to the instructors command the weights start to weight a ton! My thighs were like trembling after we finish exercises tat focus tat muscle group. The exercise covered body parts like biceps, chest, tricep, thighs, abs, etc..and I think the instructor is gd too. He is call martin..so anyone going planet should attend his class J

Ok besides gyming, of cos I still remember there is much work to do to secure the things I want from work. So now and then, I still go back to camp to talk to key personnels to gather some sensing of my chance of getting what I want. But still at this pt in time, everything still look bleak and there is really nothing much for me to fall back on..i juz gotten push on.

So it is during this period that I felt that the hardwork I put in during my overseas trip was totally oblivious to everyone. I felt abit cheated and dispair. But of cos, whenever I meet up with pple, friends or colleagues, I muz always show tat I am v positive. And I muz consistently remind myself tat all is not lost, I juz gotta continue to show my positive side to my pple and do well in my work and hope someone will recognize me eventually. I also consistently planned ahead of possible scenarios tat might happen and how I should react. Guess all this thinking process really kept me going. Maybe becos I like to feel tat I am in control so if I really can’t get wat I want eventually, I still know wat I am going to do from there..and somehow I feel better from all the plannings I do for myself.

i am back to writing again..i stopped for a period as i was feeling too vex and frustrated with things happening at work over the past two months. Day in day out, my mind is juz too pre occupied with thinking of ways to better my position at work. hope no one gonna jump to any conclusion like i back stab pple to get wat i etc..hee no worries, i intend to blog down all the things tat happened over the 2 months and my thoughts..

in accordance with my title, i will start by thinking back to my school days and do some comparison. I always tell pple to look forward and not spend too much time reminiscing their past successes. As we are growing older each day and if you do not focus your effort on carving out beautiful history now, you will be left with unhappy memories when u are old. Nevertheless, i think what ever we do, our basic values and roots must always stand firm. and personally by thinking back my past successes, it will remind myself tat i am good in such a way so i muz remember to amplify tat and continue to do well in such a way, if applicable of cos. So thinking back, i guess i am nvr a smart aleck or street-smart kind of guy. alot of my successes, may it be studies or ECAs or competitions or maybe r/s (ok i will omit r/s..hee..cos i think hardwork in r/s may juz not be tat sufficient to lead to any meaningful success) so alot of my good work in the past is really due to my conscientious effort.

I remember in JC, I think I am the only person that completed all the ten year series text. And for economics, I practically read all the textbooks by all the famous authors. Guess for this, it’s a abit extreme as I have greater interests in that subject. Nevertheless, it prove a pt tat with hardwork, there will bound to be pple who will recognize tat, in this case, its my tutor of cos.

Nevertheless the take away point from this entry I guess is not juz about working hard. Its about knowing what u wan and working hard towards it. Stay firm in your values and not be sway by all the distractions tat will definitely come along the way. If you are like me, who likes to seek pple’s opinions on a lot of issues, you will see yourself facing a lot of choices and options tat may lead u to different endpts or maybe juz diff length of time to a common endpt. You gonna make the final judgment.